i have no idea...

this being my last semester of college and graduating in less than a month, i have been inundated with two specific questions, 1) are you excited? and 2) what are your plans for after graduation? honestly, i have grown to despise both questions but here are some answers:

1) no i'm not crazy excited, but i will be tremendously relieved to finish, even if i feel like i am crawling to the finish line. even as i write this, i am stressing out because i should be studying for an exam or writing a paper or something much more productive than blogging about my feelings. i'm still unsure about all of this blogging stuff anyway...anyone have a tissue?

2) i have no idea.

it's not that i have not been planning for anything, it's just that i just don't know. and funny enough, i have begun to find strength in not knowing. it is almost refreshing to realize that it isn't up to me. being the selfish control freak that i am, i feel that i have to do it all and all of it on my own. it is nice to understand how untrue it is and how soon enough the path will be laid out for me.

this semester has been crazy. i've never gone through some of the struggles i have been through in the last few months. i literally have to take moments out of my day to sit and breathe and tell myself, "i can do this, i can do this, i can do this" seriously. i have never had to do that before.

the moral of this story is...

we don't always have to be strong.
we don't always have to be right.
it is okay to feel weak and vulnerable.

no matter the trials we face, and we all face some big battles, it is our mindset that sees us through.

even in feeling so negative lately about school and life in general, it is refreshing to know that in the end:

i will be okay.

I like this...

"What is it about the great religions? Why can't the great religions play well with each other? What are they defending? I'll tell you my interpretation: it signifies a lack of faith to always be threatened and always have to prove your way is the best. It seems again to be antithetical to the teachings of the individual religions."---Brad Pitt

Enough said.

Really...Blogging?

so i am attempting to blog. i wonder if anyone will read this, i guess it doesn't matter, writing can be therapeutic right? i guess that's what THEY say, whoever THEY are...